"Why do Fools Fall in Love?"

I downloaded a bunch of songs. So, I absolutely love old music. One of the songs I downloaded was "Why do Fools Fall in Love" By Frankie Lymon and the Teenagers. That song immediately makes me want to get up and dance. I also downloaded a couple Sam Cooke songs, he is my ultimate favorite. 
        I had a lot of trouble sleeping last night. Eventually I did get to sleep, thankfully, and I woke up before my alarm around 8:25. I have a bunch of things to do today. The majority of my day will be spent working on this Environmental Philosophy paper that I have barely started. Ten pages, ugh. I proceeded to do some packing last night, I put away some of the clothes I know I won't wear between now and Monday. This weekend, when my mom comes, we will start to pack my car. I'd like to have that all done by Monday so I can just get in my car and go when my last class meeting is done. Also, Sunday is Mother's day, I was working on a necklace for my Mom, but I haven't finished it. Okay, it is paper writing time. 

Time to cut my losses

 

How do you take advice? What do you do with things that people tell you? My problem is that I am gullible and easily persuaded. If something tells me something I immediately just instinctively trust the best in people and I believe them. I am perceptive enough to question what they say soon after, but I fall into traps super easily. Saying that, I just had a conversation with someone I haven't spoken to in a while, and they told me something that I hadn't heard before. A pretty important, possible deal breaker in a part of my life. My first instinct is to be furious and impulsively act. But since I know this about myself; I stopped.                   So now, what do I do? Formulate a plan, I suppose. Now, I do know this information is based somewhat on truth. My concern is that the person exaggerated a fair amount, or is just a little misguided. But at the same time, what they said may not effect my decision, whether it is true or not. Mostly because I think I've been coming to that conclusion anyway. If that is the case, that this particular information wouldn't change my conclusion...then I know that is the right thing to do, for sure. I'm gaining strength. All I need is a little bit of time to gain momentum. Luckily I have 4 days. Bring it on.

Grace

 

Merriam-Webster defines Grace as "ease and suppleness of movement or bearing, a charming or attractive trait or characteristic, a virtue coming from God, the quality or state of being considerate or thoughtful." She handles her problems with grace and dignity, they use as the example. Grace is a characteristic that I strive to adopt. To me, to have grace means to let negative things roll of your back, and treat the world and those you meet with respect and be just the right amount attentive. I feel that to have grace, means to treat others and yourself with respect. To take things, not because you think you deserve them, but because you think anyone deserves to be valued and deserves to be loved. This may all sound so cheesy, but to have grace is a great compliment and accomplishment in my eyes.
           My actions don't always reflect the way I feel. I often don't grant myself the appreciation or the credit that I have worked hard for. I have never been one to let anyone walk all over me, until the last year or so. I've done my share of wrong-doing as well, but two wrongs don't make a right. I hope these next 6 days I can work on keeping my chin up, and allowing myself some of the respect that I know I, like everyone else, deserve. I'm not blaming, I'm not pointing fingers. People often don't realize the implications of their actions. Sometimes feelings are hurt without any ill intention, without any maliciousness. I believe this situation is a good example of that, but nonetheless, It is my responsibility to protect myself, and to remove myself from a situation when I don't feel I am being treated right. I know I'm not perfect, I've paid for many mistakes I've made. There is no shame, nothing wrong, with taking a few steps back and putting aside some time to recover, to heal. 

"Oh I miss those days, as the years go by, Nothing's sweeter than summertime."

The days finally seem as though they are passing very slowly. Yesterday felt like an eternity. Most of the hard work is behind me now. I have one paper and a couple exams to go. All done with presentations, thank god. It seems like lately, there is always something I have to do. I am going to be so relieved when I can go home and relax for like 4 days, until I have to look for a job and start my summer classes. 
        It is so easy to get caught up in looking to the future, it is so easy to get caught up in being stuck in the past. Why is it so hard to savor the present? I feel like I am always saying, oh, well I'll enjoy the present once I am home, or once this happens, or that. There is always a better time that I think I should value the present. I know that isn't a good way to live life.

"It's not over until it's over"

A presentation and a paper will be put behind me today, looking forward to that. Devin is home, which makes me want to be home even more!! I am really excited though, because my mom is coming to visit me on Saturday evening and then staying until Sunday evening. The next day I have an open notes final and then a class meeting and then I go home! It was so beautiful yesterday,  I went to the lake and soaked in the sun. 
     As I think about this semester, and the things I have completed, I can't help but be proud. They were a few weeks that I didn't know how I was going to get everything done. There were times when I was super unsure whether I could do something, but I have done it. I am very happy these classes will be behind me in 7 days. Next semester is going to be a tough one also, I know I can do it though.

Really?

I should be writing the 6 page paper that is due tomorrow. Instead, I am on wikipedia reading about pf flyers. Seriously, I am not joking around. I feel as though when you have reached the point where you are researching shit like pf flyers to avoid doing your paper...you should slap yourself and then write your paper. I mean, I don't even have that much more shit to do, all I have to do is bang this paper out and one more thing is behind me. Lol. Ridiculous. Imma do my paper now.