"And our love's the only truth That's why I run to you"

Ah, hard to believe that I go home tomorrow evening. I infinitely enjoy getting in my car and listening to music at an un-necessarily high decibel. I enjoy speeding. I enjoy opening my sunroof. So I am looking forward to that, I hope the weather is nice.

   Tomorrow morning is going to be kind of busy. I have to run, shower, pack my car, submit my Economics assignment and go to housing before 9:30. I'm going to probably get up at 6:30....go running for half an hour. I'll figure it out. Also, for policy tomorrow we are pulling up Garlic Mustard.....that will be interesting. Much better than having actual class. I probably won't post anything over Easter break, so this may be the last until Tuesday. 

"I analyze every word just trying to find flaws"

I just completed a pretty substantial amount of school work before noon. It's a miracle. Now let's hope work is busy and I make lots of tips!! Despite some rough days, this week does seem to be going by rather quickly. I spoke on the phone with one of my best friends last night. Talking to her was really really refreshing, I think it pulled be a little bit back from the edge of insanity. What a good conversation we had, just laughing and talking. I miss her terribly. More good news, I am having a good hair day today. haha.                                              
     There are just those weeks that kick your ass. The last 2 weeks have been exactly that for me. Without weeks like that, I wouldn't appreciate the good ones as much. I suppose you have to take the bad with the good. That is something I can live with. I'll admit though, I come out of those weeks feeling worn out, mentally and physically. Running has become a really positive force in my life. For the first time in my entire life I find myself looking forward to the time I have to put on my running shoes and escape for a little bit. That is exactly it, running has become an escape for me. I really enjoy the feeling of just being on my own, knowing that nobody can reach me. Just getting away from everything, I think that's a really healthy feeling.
      I am feeling good today. I am feeling happy and optimistic. What a welcomed feeling, it seems as though happiness has been eluding me lately. Just as sleep has been. I have been just dreading to get in my bed lately, I just toss and turn. Every single night. Hopefully tonight I will be more successful at falling asleep. I used to go to bed early and fall right asleep and I was a deep sleeper. I would wake up feeling good. Not anymore. I should be thankful that I am sleeping at all, I suppose. I know eventually I will sleep, it is just a matter of time. I have no recollection of dreams also, which is most likely a good thing. 
      

"Red Light" David Nail

"Some are coming home, some are leaving town while my world's crashing down on a Sunday in the sunshine, at a red light."

Summer smile again

I'm happy that it is today, and no longer yesterday. I'm going to give this new day a better shot. Today, just happens to be my sister's 27th birthday. I can't call her until later because she lives in New Mexico, I think she would be very unhappy if I woke her up this early. My first morning class was canceled today! I have to practice piano, then class at 11, then group meeting, then piano lessons, then run, then try to get a lot of work done. I really hope these next three days hurry up already. 
         So, I'm 21 years old. holy shittttt! I need to figure out what my resolution is going to be. I have a pretty good idea actually. My resolution is going to be to try to be a more aware, more mindful person. I often make decisions or say things that I don't really think about before I do them. Being more aware of my thoughts and my actions is going to be my resolution.

"Shit my Dad Says"

"Don’t focus on the one guy who hates you. You don’t go to the park and set your picnic down next to the only pile of dog shit."  -Justin Halpern

"We are not always what we seem,

and hardly ever what we dream."
                                                       -The Last Unicorn-

Time says I should but I haven’t yet

Well, today is the day. Doesn't feel any different or any more special than yesterday or the day before. I opened the two gifts from my parents, a silver and blue bracelet and a dress. I like both. What I really want to do is get in my car and just drive to the beach. I don't know where the closest beach is....but that is where I want to go. Unfortunately I have classes, so I can't do that. Currently I am listening to Dean Brody. I will probably go running around 4, after my last class. I am not expecting much out of this day.....and yes, I realize how depressing that sounds. One of my best friends called me at midnight to wish me a happy birthday. Without being on facebook, I doubt many other people will remember. I guess I don't really care, it's not really a big deal. 
          The thing I'm looking the most forward to is work on Wednesday, how ridiculous is that? I like work though. Actually I do kind of enjoy the drive home also......another strange thing to enjoy, but it is what it is. Maybe on the way home I'll stop and pick up some chocolate milk from Battenkill Valley Creamery. The best chocolate milk ever!!! I may write again later, We'll see.